Still Debating

I'm still debating where to go with this whole blogging thing.....My husband really lost his cool over it. Okay, first, I have no idea how many of you he sent nasty e-mails. To all of you, I'm sorry.....I still can't believe that after 12 years of marriage, he thought I might be cyber-sexing someone......Anyway, obviously, we need to reestablish some trust before I can continue. No matter if I keep writing as Faye the "Fictionalized" or Faye the "Domestic Goddess". In the meanwhile, I would like to thank all of you for your support and understanding. Feel free to e-mail me or leave comments. I am still reading blogs. I am still here. I'm just sort of hurting right now........This is one of those times when I wish I was a "Little Mary Sunshine" who could just instantly forgive and forget and move on.

Also, for those of you who have felt the need to wipe your hands of me. I understand....I might not like it, but I understand. My husband told me what he wrote in the e-mails, just not who he sent them to....I have at least a couple of guesses, but I digress. Anyhow, I know that after presenting myself as Faye the "Fictionalized", finding out I was married and a mother must have made me seem like a horrible liar....and I guess I was. "BUT" my husband and I agreed to certain rules, before I began blogging. I was to make my blog life different enough that no one would be able to walk up and say "Hey, I know who you are." My kids were never to be mentioned, as mine. Their real names were never to be used. Or my husbands.
So, there you go. It might not be the greatest excuse, but it's the truth....I was trying to play by the "rules". Now, if I had the time to get to know someone, enough, that I felt they could be trusted with the truth, I was allowed to tell them. At that point, and not before. There are a couple of people I trusted with the truth and I was considering letting someone-else in on the secret, when KABLOOIE, my husband sent out the e-mails of doom. Again, to those that got them. I apologize.

I think that's enough for today. My headache is back. By the way, Uncle Joe is doing great....He really is my Aunt Shirley. What the hell do I need the pretense for anymore, anyway? God Bless you all.